my family's theme song

as what had the songs been telling us... even in the darkest hour of the day...if we just hold on to each other...we can reach our destination...

Friends Forever

I always love this song. Every time i could hear this song, tears would keep falling in my eyes.
I love my friends so much that they are really are a treasure to behold.
Let me do a list of those friends that I treasure so much.

1. Rhoda Ann Bacusmo - she's my classmate and best friend in Kindergarten. We remained friends up to the present. As n wala akong tinatago sa kanya...and among my friends she's the one who could tell me everything and comment on me without lies and pretensions.
2. Tommy Jean Galado - a true confidante, she is my spongebob. I love to tell her my inner dreams and apprehensions in life. She could tell if im sad or not. She could feel it right away if im not feeling well and if i have problems even though we're miles away. Tommy is my bessy...she knows every tiny details in my life.
3. Ana Mardresa Ballebas - my matinding kaaway...heheh inspite of that...we are still the same kakusa eversince HS.
4. Mae Gumba - my medicine...she always makes me laugh with her original antics...super galing nitong magpatawa...and she's not only that...she got loads of brain and wisdom...matalino ang babaitang ito...
5. Maria Annabelle Gerona - same with Tommy...Ate Aen is my sponge bob...hehe she's my prayer warrior... i love her so much coz she never fails to listen to my heartaches and everything.
6. Sharon Cangayda
7. Erwin Alcober
8. Venice Juera
9. Juliet Amazona
10. Tiffany Jane Cañas
11. Karen Castro
12. Darely Tripoli
13. Dianne Landrito

That's What Friends are For!

I always love this song. Every time i could hear this song, tears would keep falling in my eyes.
I love my friends so much that they are really are a treasure to behold.
Let me do a list of those friends that I treasure so much.

1. Rhoda Ann Bacusmo - she's my classmate and best friend in Kindergarten. We remained friends up to the present. As n wala akong tinatago sa kanya...and among my friends she's the one who could tell me everything and comment on me without lies and pretensions.
2. Tommy Jean Galado - a true confidante, she is my spongebob. I love to tell her my inner dreams and apprehensions in life. She could tell if im sad or not. She could feel it right away if im not feeling well and if i have problems even though we're miles away. Tommy is my bessy...she knows every tiny details in my life.
3. Ana Mardresa Ballebas - my matinding kaaway...heheh inspite of that...we are still the same kakusa eversince HS.
4. Mae Gumba - my medicine...she always makes me laugh with her original antics...super galing nitong magpatawa...and she's not only that...she got loads of brain and wisdom...matalino ang babaitang ito...
5. Maria Annabelle Gerona - same with Tommy...Ate Aen is my sponge bob...hehe she's my prayer warrior... i love her so much coz she never fails to listen to my heartaches and everything.
6. Sharon Cangayda- my katangahan...kagemahan partner, we shared the same dream... the same passion...and of being a true Kapamilya...we both love ABS-CBN. we conquered the odds... and been able to do our internship at ABS-CBN Cebu...inspite of everything...yeah almost every thing that blocks the realization of it...
7. Erwin Alcober- my guy best friend, aside from John. He knew my love ideals and pains. :D erwin is a tough guy...with so much love to give. We share the same thoughts on love and martyrdom??? :D
8. Venice Juera- my pink sister... someone I can spill my heartaches, pains, disappointments with. I share everything that I went through with her and blue. The only person that I could be natural with...and yes being normal with... she's the only person who laughs at me even if i'm crying.. :D I dunno y she finds me so funny
9. Juliet Amazona- my blue sister...a true angel...a reliable friend... so genuine...i hate people who judged her because they don't know how she is as a person. We share the same passion at work... I can be a true workaholic with her. Juliet...is someone that you can cry with , laugh with and be kikay with...
Even though people are judging her drastically...she never do that to fight them back... she still would be considerate of that person's feeling... she never hurts somebody just to get whatever she wanted... :) a truly amazing person.
10. Tiffany Jane Cañas - my pamangkin... I grew up with her. I took care of her as what a real auntie should be..
11.Darely Tripoli - someone you can turn to... when you're not feeling welll... : ) emotionally... she can heal you with her antics...a true friend...
12. Anna Patrice Sedigo and Jelilah Marie Cagande - these are the two people in high school that I shared my kagagahan with... about "Dark Eyes" and "VGA"... I know they knew it.. :D enjoyed being with them... anywhere...
13. Dianne Landrito & Edna Operaña- my ates in the office... the two people who helped me in coping up the drastic change in my life...from being a naive probinsyana to a fighter super girl in the metropolis....
14. Karen Castro- my online buddy...i met her online and she's such a great person... We both Love Eula Valdes...coz she's our idol...
Karen did so many amazing things when it comes to our idol... and I cant thank her enough for that...
15. My House mates.....
Ate CJ Gonzales, Kei Angeles, Rein Pardo, Debby Panelo and Samantha Arcilla... ahhhh... the most understanding people in the world...they're so nice...they feed me when im hungry, console me when im so depressed, comforted me when im sick... and they've been so true...to the extent of reprimanding me whenever m so dent with my life... :D

16. My TITA GING- i dunno... words cant express...how grateful I am to have her in my life...and much more that she's with me hre in Manila... life is so different without her...

27. JOHN... the love of my life...my knight in shining armor, my tennis superstar, my dirty dancing partner, the only person who can tolerate my extremities and inferiorities...the person who have accepted my flaws with eyes half close??? life isn't life without him... i love him till death do us part... :D


I have so many friends in my life... and I will continuously cherish the friendship they gave me...

songs that i can relate to...

nagdadrma lang talaga... jus ko!!!
http://profile.imeem.com/BSt9n4/playlist/-bOt0qR5/songs_music_playlist/

just a thought to share...

"the best is yet to come" ~~~ that's what i'm holding on at present.

I still believe that "when the Lord closes the door, somehow He opens up the window".



I was supposed to take a training with the UPL-HAL (Holland America Line) today in Antipolo City. This would be the first step to become one of the Front Desk Assistant onboard any of HAL's cruise ship. Last Wednesday UPL called me up that I am listed for the one week FDA(front desk assistant) Training.... Then of course I was excited and said Yes without a second thought.



A day passed and then I decided to fill up my Leave form and show it to my boss. It's so strange, i felt so nervous and scared in asking permission from her when normally i don't feel that way whenever i talked to her.

when i did the interview with UPL-HAL i never got the jitters and fears that an applicant would usually feel...and its so funny that it came out now...in a very odd situation...



then i know why...she declined my request...and i was so hurt...really coz prior to this she openly told us that we can go on seek job anywhere and she'll support us. i was really hurt with how she reacted... where's the promise of supporting us all the way.



but then, i still went to the orientation last saturday, hoping that with the information i will be getting there i would be able to explain to her further and later on convince her to give me the requests i was asking from her.

then things went worse when i went back to the office...my boss was boiling mad at me and said that i cant go on leave...or else if i insist she'll put me on AWOL. naman!!! patay talaga...

it was so painful...seems that all my dreams went out of sight. ganito ba talaga. when you're almost at the peak of your dreams...some situations or occurence would somehow drag you down to where you came from.

i cant do anything...my present job is my bread and butter ...at di ko basta basta ma gigive up ito. how could i support my application abroad if ala me pera di bah...??? kaya di ko pa kayang mag resign. no matter how much i dreamt of getting that job di ko pa rin kayang i give up ang source of living ko.

then i realize...my life did not end there... marami pang naghihintay sa akin in the future...m still so young.

i am positive that the best thing is still coming to my life... alam ko. coz God never gave me problems that i cant solve nor obstacles that i cant hurdle.

kaya kaya ko ito... am still waiting for my "window" to open...

madrama ang buhay ko ngaun...siguro this is not yet the right time for me to go and work abroad...

i just hope and pray na when an oppurtunity would soon come into my life...i would be very ready to grab it and make my dreams into reality...

"loveya'll"

jinny

storm of emotions

m happy...
though its not yet sure...masaya me kasi i've learned that my new pamangkin (mia's baby) will be a GIRL... hheeheh dami na naming girls sa family.... and we will name her,

ZAIN LEONA. why such name???
ZAIN- got the name from KC's friend in Paris. I've watched her project in ABS-CBN last night, as in pinagpuyatan.... KC from Paris to Pinas.... such an inspiring work of art... un!
and i've realized it is also some sort of a combination sa names naming magkakapatid... Z-from mizziel, A- from sunday, IN from jin-moi.... :) di ba cute...

LEONA - is also a rough combination of my parents name as well as mia's. L- from Mirasol, EO-from MEO my tatay's nickname, and NA from MARCELINA my nanay's name... o di vah...

and i planned to give her a sossy nickname... EONA.... pronounced as YONA...o divah... love ko kasi si Ms. EULA kaya ganon....

m so excited na of our new baby... Hehehe...

m sad...

its been three days na since the last time that my baby had texted me... i miss him jud and i dunno y. grabe...
i cried a river yesterday kasi alam ko rin na malungkot sya...at posibleng busy din sya...
alam kong pagod sya palagi...but i just cant help it... na mimiss ko talaga sya sobra...super to the max... : [.

m inspired
nagpuyat me kagabi sa pagpapanood nang docu ni KC... ung KC from Paris to Pinas... as in nakaka inspire itong batang ito...she's so down to earth and so nationalistic... love ko na sya...
i wanna be like her...inspite of her status... nakakatulong pa rin sya sa ating mga kababayan nating nangangailangan nang tulong...

grabe, bow ako sau KC ... God Bless You always... ang bait mong tao...

hay... ito ang mga emotions na nararamdaman ko ngaun... sana i would be okay soon... maski di me ok...basta ok lang si John and the rest of my family...

love ko sila...and im willing to give up my own happiness for them to be happy... sa susunod na naman...

- loveyah'l-

jinny

~~ give me the answer~~~

getting married...
is this a the right decision? am i sure with this? or are we sure in this idea of us tying the knot? are we financially capable of raising a family of our own? am i on the right age to do so???
these are the questions that kept popping out of my head these days.
i myself can't believe it when he suddenly texted me that he wanted us to get married next year. i was overwhelmed with mixed emotions... i won't deny it of course...i'm scared...really scared on the outcome of this very important decision... am i responsible enough for this action?
i am happy and really glad that i could have him forever. John is the man of my dreams...i fought for our love...well, for him in particular. i prayed for him and even wished in some sort of a shooting star in one of those cloudless night that i stared into the nothingness of the horizon infront of me...
i love him without a doubt...for he loved me the same way...or perhaps...much more than what i've expected.
but what would the future upholds for us.
are we ready???
no matter how hard i tried to comprehend things but still i have this hesitation in me... why?? is this normal for a bride to be...?
my god!!! i have only 6 months to decide on it...
i have some dreams to fulfill...dreams for my family , myself and for the two of us. coz there's no doubt...i can't go on living this life without John on it...
he is the answer to my tearful prayers...when i got really hurt back then...
but still why do i have this apprehensions....???

my mom seems sad...that i am going to leave them...
it is not happening coz no matter where life would lead me to...i will never ever turn my back for them...and im willing to give up everything for them...

is this one of those sacrifices that i have to do for them... AGAIN?>???

is it worth it>??

why is it so hard...????????????????

God help me decide on this...
Please...if this is your will Lord...THY WILL BE DONE...

scary reality

THE CHANGES IN MY LIFE ARE OVERWHELMING...the plans that i have for my life went on a total detour...

from my preferences... to my emotianal and physical state... everything changed with just one text message i've received in one lazy evening of June 28, 2007...

it was from my sister Mizziel. it said like this " Ate buntis si Mia, as in buntis jud siya...unsa na gud tawn ni...Buntis gyd sya as in..." i was dumbstruck and lost the moment i got the message.



was it really for me or is it one of those corny jokes that we shared...no this can't be true...

i was trembling when i dialed my sister's mobile...then it was confirmed...



by the noisy background in our conversation...nanay was hysterical, mia was sobbing and my tatay was mumbling words i can't decipher... then it was true... it is true then...



my world suddenly stopped revolving...how could this happen...



Mia is our youngest and I am the eldest...in a proper manner... i should be the one telling them "I am pregnant".... coz i am in the right age, i got a job, and a boyfriend who is more than willing to take my hands in marriage... (infact we were just waiting for the right moment)...

But why her... i could have accepted if it was Mizziel my other sister....or Sunday's (my brother) girlfriend who would tell us that they are bearing a child...

But why her... i still can't fathom it...why???!!! she hasn't enjoyed her teenage life... she hasn't finish college...if she ever have plans of doing this...she could had finish this year (coz she's graduating) and do the heck out of it...



Good thing I wasn't drinking too much espresso that time...or i could have trembled...Good thing John is there to pacify me... i wanna cry...but i was in the middle of the road...We're on our way home then...



From then on...my whole world changed...



i started thinking about that child's future...

i started taking over the responsibility of raising that child, and the idea of having my own started to fade...

i then turned to John and said... "please give me time to plan our wedding...it won't be next year or the next... i dunno" he then told me..." it's alright...i'm willing to wait bei"

i started thinking about my nanay...is she okay by now...how did she took it...

i started to do a quick calculation of the expenses that we might acquire with her delivery and the things that she might need on her pregnancy... will i be able to finance it???

then i realize, there's no way that i could turn my back on them... they're my family and whatever may happen to them...i couldn't bear it...

so i decided... to be strong... take the responsibility...no matter how hard it would be...

i am confident coz i know that God will never leave me behind... i know that this is His will and I don't have the right to disagree...

Just help me Lord!!!

happy ako yet marami akong apprehensions...
sa ano?
well, sa maraming aspeto sa buhay ko...dami kong tanong na kailangan kong malaman ang kasagutan...coz my life depends on it...alam mo un???
i know that there are lots of people there who shares my agony...

sa totoo lang, i don't have that someone whom i could truly confide what im feelin ryt now, well there's my bf but he is not always available for me...he has his own life to live and i don't want to be a hindrance and everything...

yes we love each other...but it doesn't mean that i own him...

ohhhhhhhh!!!

Girlfriends are forever!!!

You all know who you are...enjoy
A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter.
"Don't forget your girl friends," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need girl friends. Remember to goplaces with them now and then; do things with them. "Remember that girl friends means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, andall your other women relatives too. "You'll need other women. Women always do."
What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'
But she listened to her Mother. She kept contact with her girl friends and made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, girl friends are the mainstays of her life.
After more than 50 years of living in this world, here is what I've learned:Time passes.Life happens.Distance separates.Children grow up.Jobs come and go.Love waxes and wanes.Men don't do what they're supposed to do.Hearts break.Parents die.Colleagues forget favors.Careers end.BUT.........girl friends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, chee ring you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you...Or come in and carry you out. Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended family, all bless our life!
The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other.Every day, we need each other still.

~~ SUMMER DILEMMA~~

summer-~~~ when you hear that word it would usually connotes to beach outing, radiating hot weather outside and the need to get yourself ready to exposing your body. that simple, but that word give me chill...heheh not on the radical side though. but the thought of it gives me a headache...ahhhhh!!!

i admit i am really not taking care of mah figure and i have bulges everywhere...and i dunno why...hay maybe its because i love eating...eating anything talga...ohh...

now here's the problem...i need to but meiself a swimwear...and the dilemma started when nothing fits me...OMG!
i wanna regret the time i overeat and beeinnng too llllazzzyyyy to move my booty out of my bed and do some exercise...

and i envy people who had a figure that suits themselves to pair of two piece suit...aaaaaahhhh...leads me to wish that i do have such body...

i love myself YESS~!!! but whenever it comes to something like this...ooooooooohhhh....i tend to regret what i've done ...

yeah, i still can do this... i still can shed off the extra weight and bulges that i put on my body.... i know i can...

Oh God Help...hope next summer i can wear bikinis nah...

oooooohhhhhhhhh i have to make it happpeeeennn...i need to do it so that when im going to read this blog again... i would read this with a smile...and hopefully cladding a two-piece swimwear with me ...

love of beauty and art exudes in me

top ten favorite celebrities

1. MS. EULA VALDES- since the start of Pangako Sa'yo she's enamored me with her timeless beauty and her acting skills had improved to a 360 degree turn since her last teleserye Marinela. She's one of the Philippines finest artist...a genuine thespian.

2. ANGELINA JOLIE- she's beautiful inside out. She's the only actress who won't answer to vague rumors and criticisms.

3. CHIN-CHIN GUTIERREZ- such a beautiful creation of God. her involvement in charity works and environmental protection activities would surely put her in the position next to Angelina Jolie in the United Nations.

4. LINDSAY LOHAN- i love her... in the movies...

5. MARICEL SORIANO - who wouldn't love her? she's a gem in the Philippine Entertainment Industry.

6. JEAN GARCIA - i have to admit...she's much loveable than miss julia. and she's a great actress too.

7. JULIE ANDREWS - i love her since i was a child. i was mesmerized by her beauty and glamour in the movie "sound of music". her character then inspired me to dream big and be happy as a child.

8. KATE WINSLET- she's great. her roles in the movie moves me and she always give justice to the characters she's portraying in the movies she's in.

9. MAJA SALVADOR - she's so young and yet she deserves to be lined up in the list of Philippines Greatest Actress. "Versatility" really exudes in her personality.

10. ANNE CURTIS- at first i was not impressed of her because of the way she bring herself up to the public... but i've changed my views...coz she's really a good. her dashing beauty would always make the Filipinos proud.

whirlwind of emotions

so many events are happening in my life these days. i'm so overwhelemed on the extremities of it all.
- first, i am bombarded with financial dilemma. ewan ko kong paano ko ito lalampasan... its so hard...i still have to pay my debt sa akong uyab, to my cousin, then comes the problem that my family is facing sa among yuta. And I have to help my parents solve this problem. Im the only one who could help them.
I've done the stupidest thing that a girlfriend could do...and now i have to face the consequences of such actions. Now i need to do things beyond my control. I will do my best to pay the debts that i acquire from him. I just hope everything would soon be fine.

- I was so affected by the death of the US Peace Corp Volunteer Ms. Julia Campbell. Napakawalang Puso naman nang pumatay sa kanya...she's so amazingly good and nice to the Filipino people tapos ito lang ang ibinalik sa kanyang kabaitan. Eversince indi ko ikinahihiya ang pagiging Filipino ko...but on this aspect, i disgrace being called "Pinoy". I just couldn't fathom why her wonderful life ended this way. My heart bleeds for the loss of such a great soul. The Filipinos really should regret that they've wasted a person that is so precious... hay! nalurking ako.

- then here's my dream, nabuang ba ko oi. Parang na bothered gani ko for a short while... i dreamt of makin love with one of my closest male friend...ambot nalurking ko... as in...wala it doesnt matter naman talaga...

- yesterday i was so down and low...tapos nagtext ako sa sister ko...then i received a text from Mam Virgie again. ang ganda talaga it is so timely...infact i wanna cry kasi im so thankful that even though i felt so alone and lonely may nakaalala pa rin pala sa akin...and i thank God for such a wonderful blessing. here goes her text:


reflections...
1.) Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.
2.) Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
3.) Sometimes, He sends us pain so we can be stronger.
4.) Sometimes, He sends us failure so we can be humble.
5.) Sometimes, He sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
6.) Sometimes, He takes "Everything" away from us so we can learn the value of " Anything" we have. Good Night!

it warms my night as well....
thanks again Ma'am. You lighten up the burden that I'm carrying in my heart right now.

- my baby, hasn't texted me. and it really hurts knowing that I draw strength and confidence from him. i miss him so much and i long for his comforting words especially in moments like this one. I just hope that I could still hold on to the promise of Love that we had for each other.

God, please do help me in everything that i do in my life...please take charge on me...i dunno where to go...and please take me out of the darkness...i feel so helpless and I need you Lord. cast away the pain i have inside...its so painful...i cant stand anymore Lord.

I know you wont give me problems i can solve...i believe in you Lord God and I raise all of my concerns to you...I love you Lord and take over my life now...

LEAD ME LORD>>> I love you...

dreams are supposed to be true...

i was so happy last night ...
its because of a text reply that i got from one person who matter so much to me back in high school.
"you were thinking about a lover?" --- nah!???
she's not.

she was my teacher back then and she's so special coz...back then she doesn'y like me...and i do understand that i really don't exist in her world. maybe because i am not a toplister in my class. i am just an average student who live a simple life.
then last january, on her birthday, i sent her some gift. she was so happy and glad that she got it... you know what she was amazed to know that i still looked up to her even though its been so long since the last time we've seen each other.

then we started texting...i was sending her really nice messages...but she always took it so well that she would thank me for remembering her and all.
its so unbelievable on my side, coz when i was still in high school i long for the moment that she would make "pansin" on me. Kasi i really do like her ... and i dont know the reason why.

last night i sent her a good night text..and she texted back " Good Nite too, Jean (wrong spelling pa jud! let me think na i really dont matter to her, but its ok thought, i wont ask for more) your greetings warm my nites" i dunno why she said that?

is she alone or is she that lonely?
why would she text me like that? siguro ang lungkot2 niya kasi nag iisa lang sya...di ba?
naaawa tuloy ako sa kanya. her sons may not text her always...

she would rarely text me...but if she does..nakakapanlambot ng puso...coz di ko kasi akalain na mangyayari ito sa akin...that my favorite teacher would become my friend...

my only wish these days is to see her once again...i wanna know if she really likes me...
anywez, ok lang kong hindi mangyayari yan the soonest kasi alam ko naman may plano pa ang Dios sa akin.

then i realize that sometimes when you're really nice and good...God won't hesitate granting your prayers and even your wishes....

-to my Ma'am Virgie- thanks also for being a part of me...you deserve to be loved... God Bless You always...

the folly of JINNY...

maganda naman ang gising ko ngaun. walang kupas na naman ang aking pagiging bedbug. u knw the kind that wakes up late in the morning and get up really hard that ur housemates would literally drag u out of ur bed. ito ang sakit ko...maski anong changes ang gagawin ko sa aking buhay...i still can't change my habit of malingering in my bed.

sino ba ang salarin sa pagiging "bed beauty" ko.?

sino?!

- is it the late TV series na inaabangan ko? not to mention ang magandang palabas sa Channel 2 ...well i can't blame myself from being a true blue kapamilya...kasi naman ang gaganda ng mga plots and stories sa primetime bida...and to add it up..hmm my idol , MS. EULA VALDES is back on the primetime...now in a milder character na si JO ESPERO...hmmm..nababakla talaga ako sa kanya.

- how about my insomniac habit of reading a book before going to sleep. ewan ko ba y i cant sleep without peeking a page on whatever book on my bedside... andami ko pang book na nakalinya sa aking closet..i dunno kong ano ang uunahin koh... at ito pa andami ko pang gustong bibilhin sa bookstore.

- my late nite textmates...minsan lang sila...but pag nag titext naman dyos ko... one hour ang duration...ng pag tetext namin...naaaaaammmmaaaaaaaaannn...

- my equally insomniac housemates...ang tagal nilang matuloggg...grrrrrrrr....

- and my god! i can't sleep, if the light si ON...grr!!! ano bah toh!!! di naman ako ganyan noon eh...ewan ko bah nag babago talaga ang tao nuh? ahmmmm...

- homesickness...if im on my way to dreamland..namimiss ko ang lahat ng tao sa BAYBAY..like my mother and father and the cats and the dogs in the house...hehehe... mga kapatid ko't pamangkin... of course ang aking papa JOHN...huhu..i miss him na talaga... ewan ko bah...my Lord...di ko pa rin na get over ang aking kgagahannnnnnnnnn.... o xa!

- the hotness of summer... may word bah na hotness??? hhahah shunga! walah... anywez...init tlaga ng panahon...pati ang hangin na binubuga ng aking electric fan ay mainit na rin...

bakit nga bah hindi ako makakatulog sa gabi??? is this a disease that i should be scared unto?? ay nako... unsaon na lang ni>???

differences

what? ano nga bah?

what's happening with my life? what have i done to it?

am i supposed to be contented or wining over the lack of excitement and joy the zenith

of my life.

m still in need of experience and wisdom that i could own. should i look for a new job.? para feeling fulfilled naman ako. di ko maintindihan ang nararamdaman kong kahungkagan sa puso ko. or sa pagkatao ko.

Ewan ko bah? hay! bakit kaya i have this worries in me that i might not be able to attain my goals in life. Hirap talaga!!

Ayoko nah!!!

simple yet complicated

that's me...
i love the simplicity of my life and how it became complicated.
i was just a simple lass in a simple and timid town in Leyte.
the town is called Baybay...and the way of life there is simple.
i love being in that town...with my family and childhood friends...the customs that i am accustomed to.
whatelse???

im so happy i did this

im so fond of writing and posting my thoughts so that other people would read it. and im pretty sure that i did this ryt im glad i found this part of the universe..ill just cut this short...i need to go