getting married...
is this a the right decision? am i sure with this? or are we sure in this idea of us tying the knot? are we financially capable of raising a family of our own? am i on the right age to do so???
these are the questions that kept popping out of my head these days.
i myself can't believe it when he suddenly texted me that he wanted us to get married next year. i was overwhelmed with mixed emotions... i won't deny it of course...i'm scared...really scared on the outcome of this very important decision... am i responsible enough for this action?
i am happy and really glad that i could have him forever. John is the man of my dreams...i fought for our love...well, for him in particular. i prayed for him and even wished in some sort of a shooting star in one of those cloudless night that i stared into the nothingness of the horizon infront of me...
i love him without a doubt...for he loved me the same way...or perhaps...much more than what i've expected.
but what would the future upholds for us.
are we ready???
no matter how hard i tried to comprehend things but still i have this hesitation in me... why?? is this normal for a bride to be...?
my god!!! i have only 6 months to decide on it...
i have some dreams to fulfill...dreams for my family , myself and for the two of us. coz there's no doubt...i can't go on living this life without John on it...
he is the answer to my tearful prayers...when i got really hurt back then...
but still why do i have this apprehensions....???
my mom seems sad...that i am going to leave them...
it is not happening coz no matter where life would lead me to...i will never ever turn my back for them...and im willing to give up everything for them...
is this one of those sacrifices that i have to do for them... AGAIN?>???
is it worth it>??
why is it so hard...????????????????
God help me decide on this...
Please...if this is your will Lord...THY WILL BE DONE...
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