so many events are happening in my life these days. i'm so overwhelemed on the extremities of it all.
- first, i am bombarded with financial dilemma. ewan ko kong paano ko ito lalampasan... its so hard...i still have to pay my debt sa akong uyab, to my cousin, then comes the problem that my family is facing sa among yuta. And I have to help my parents solve this problem. Im the only one who could help them.
I've done the stupidest thing that a girlfriend could do...and now i have to face the consequences of such actions. Now i need to do things beyond my control. I will do my best to pay the debts that i acquire from him. I just hope everything would soon be fine.
- I was so affected by the death of the US Peace Corp Volunteer Ms. Julia Campbell. Napakawalang Puso naman nang pumatay sa kanya...she's so amazingly good and nice to the Filipino people tapos ito lang ang ibinalik sa kanyang kabaitan. Eversince indi ko ikinahihiya ang pagiging Filipino ko...but on this aspect, i disgrace being called "Pinoy". I just couldn't fathom why her wonderful life ended this way. My heart bleeds for the loss of such a great soul. The Filipinos really should regret that they've wasted a person that is so precious... hay! nalurking ako.
- then here's my dream, nabuang ba ko oi. Parang na bothered gani ko for a short while... i dreamt of makin love with one of my closest male friend...ambot nalurking ko... as in...wala it doesnt matter naman talaga...
- yesterday i was so down and low...tapos nagtext ako sa sister ko...then i received a text from Mam Virgie again. ang ganda talaga it is so timely...infact i wanna cry kasi im so thankful that even though i felt so alone and lonely may nakaalala pa rin pala sa akin...and i thank God for such a wonderful blessing. here goes her text:
reflections...
1.) Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.
2.) Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
3.) Sometimes, He sends us pain so we can be stronger.
4.) Sometimes, He sends us failure so we can be humble.
5.) Sometimes, He sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
6.) Sometimes, He takes "Everything" away from us so we can learn the value of " Anything" we have. Good Night!
it warms my night as well....
thanks again Ma'am. You lighten up the burden that I'm carrying in my heart right now.
- my baby, hasn't texted me. and it really hurts knowing that I draw strength and confidence from him. i miss him so much and i long for his comforting words especially in moments like this one. I just hope that I could still hold on to the promise of Love that we had for each other.
God, please do help me in everything that i do in my life...please take charge on me...i dunno where to go...and please take me out of the darkness...i feel so helpless and I need you Lord. cast away the pain i have inside...its so painful...i cant stand anymore Lord.
I know you wont give me problems i can solve...i believe in you Lord God and I raise all of my concerns to you...I love you Lord and take over my life now...
LEAD ME LORD>>> I love you...
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