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journal written last July 18, 2008

What made me do this?
So many answers to that simple question…
Boredom, distress, depression, call of literary passion, outburst???
These are just some of the adjectives that simply describes what I’m feeling. And yes the answer to the question above.
A lot of things are popping out of my mind today.
And honestly I dunno where to start.

I was in a seminar with Mr. Ardy Arbello of Business Works and he talked about LeadershipRespect. A truly enlightening seminar for yuppies and prospective “leaders” like me. He disturbed me…in a way that he taught me to dream “again” of being a leader.
I was once a leader, an immature one…not in a sense that I am really ignorant and mediocre in what I am doing. It’s just that I am not ready to lead.
I consider it as a failure in my part after I heard right from my boss that I am a disappointment to her.
But, I am not the kind of person who give up easily…and I always looked at the brighter side of everything no matter how impossible it is.
Hearing it from a motivational speaker like Sir Ardy…I can firmly say that I can still do the impossible and dream again.
I may not had reached the top of the ladder yet in terms of leadership…but I can still pick up the fallen ladder and use it again to climb up the steps of success.
I still have the values… yes… I can’t say that I am truly successful if I am doing the wrong things just to get to the position that I am aiming.

I will always put in my mind the values that I earned and gained in my 25 years of existence. I always believe that if you’re in the right track… no matter how many pit holes and obstacles are keeping your way harder than ever…if you’re doing what is right for the better… God will surely make your journey worthwhile and fulfilling.

Somehow, I’ve met people who had everything, material possession, power and influence in the field that I am into. But I always admire those leaders who succeed with what they’re doing and remained humble and rooted to the ground, willing to share their wisdom to the young minds that are hungry for it.

it is an honor for me to know them. Knowing that I am an aspiring leader, ready to lead someone who will share the same passion that I have in the future.

Hay! I know I have some grammatical glitches … but I really wanna voice out whats inside my heart and in my mind.
Writing , blogging or writing a journal is an outlet for me.
It gives me peace of mind and satisfaction that I can actually read over and over again my thoughts and share it with others who happens to bump into my blog in the world wide web…

What shall I say/write next???


Ah… nothing… ok…
Ill try to express what’s in my mind in my native language.


Gkapoy man ko…ug wala sad koy lingaw. Ganahan ko mutan-aw ug pelikula sa DVD pero nawad-an na sad ko ug gana.
Wala ko kasabot ug ngano?
Tungod siguro kini sa problema nga g-atubang sa among pamilya sa pagkakaron.
Sa tinooray lang, wala usab ko katugkad sa hinungdan ug rason nganong amo kining giagian karon.

Wala man kami sala…wala sad kami nakasagasa ug mga tao ug nakapasakit kanila.
Ngano gayud nga kinahanglan kini nga maagian sa akong ginikanan.
Tiguwang na sila…ug wala ako mahibalo sa paagi aron sila matabangan.
Dakong kantidad ang gipangita nila sa pagkakaron. Ganahan ako mutabang pero wala ko kabalo unsaon.
Lisod gayud sabton ug huna hunaon ang tanan…
Ako lang nanghinaot sa makausa pa nga dunggon sa kahitas-an ang among pag-ampo… nga dili kami niya pasagdan sa giyera ug pagsulay nga among giatubang sa pagkakaron.

Wala ako sa hustong posisyon aron I kwestyon ang kahitas-an sa problema nga among giatubang karon.

Nahibalo ako nga aduna pay mga tao nga mas dako ug problema nga giatubang kaysa kanamo.

Ako lang pangayoon sa Ginoo nga tagaan niya kami sa hustong kusog sa pag-atubang ug pagdawat sa mga pagsulay ug kalisud nga among nahiaguman sa pagkakaron. Nga kami mutan-aw lamang niini isip lamas sa among pagpuyo niining kalibutan.

Nanghinaot kami nga lamdagan niya ang huna huna sa tao nga nag gunit niining among kaso nga sila musabot sa among kahimtang.
Dili ako gusto nga maglisod ug masakitan pa ang akong mga ginikanan… they had enough …I hope they can survive…


God will make a way and I can affirmed to that… with Him everything is POSSIBLE.