work, dreams .. :D and life

its labor day... a holiday here in the Philippines.
There's no work when its holiday right??? How come i'm here online and doing this...not only that im in the office.
Well, actually it's my fault...my fault that i'm forced to go here even though it's a non working holiday.
I made a mistake in one of my bookings and we are overbooked for two days... Man!!! that's so stupid of me...
I dunno what got on me that it happened. and the stupidity of it....i wasnt able to check on it...
I am still waiting for tomorrow...my managers back in the resort are working it out...they're finding solutions to the disaster i've created.
Good thing they're helpful...hope they won't get tired of me.

Once again a bizaare event happening to me...
I dunno if this is because I'm always relaxed and so passive that i often procrastinate in so many things...not only with work but a lot of things... :(

HAAAAAY!

Another thing that's making me sad right now is the thought that John will be leaving soon... soon as in soon... its getting nearer...today is Thursday and Monday is getting nearer and that's his departure day to the US. Back to work after a month's vacation.
I know that time would just swift its day faster than ever... but still 10 months is 10 months.
How I wish we could just be together always... but it's impossible...
We have to work to support our family...
I promised him that i will wait for him... He said if I'd got used to it... I told him I should be... I love him and that's what I'm supposed to do.
He was asking if I am gonna cry if i send him off to the airport this Monday. Told him No. He thought I might be getting used to our situation... Yes I replied.

He just don't know that I'm so hurt of him leaving me behind. He just dunno that tears won't stop running through my face as soon as i get into a taxi on my way home...
It's painful when someone you love so much have to go away for you to have a better life in the future...
It's so painful when you can't do anything to stop him from going... it's his dream... and I can't dare to be hindrance to the realization of his ambitions.

I love him and that's the only reason... im waiting.

Agrh!@$%@Q... im tired...got to get off my eyes from this monitor...

These past few days it continuously giving me headache...

Don't have any choice but I have to live......

Till then...

I have to go back to reality...and that is, WORKING>>>>>>again...