just a thought to share...

"the best is yet to come" ~~~ that's what i'm holding on at present.

I still believe that "when the Lord closes the door, somehow He opens up the window".



I was supposed to take a training with the UPL-HAL (Holland America Line) today in Antipolo City. This would be the first step to become one of the Front Desk Assistant onboard any of HAL's cruise ship. Last Wednesday UPL called me up that I am listed for the one week FDA(front desk assistant) Training.... Then of course I was excited and said Yes without a second thought.



A day passed and then I decided to fill up my Leave form and show it to my boss. It's so strange, i felt so nervous and scared in asking permission from her when normally i don't feel that way whenever i talked to her.

when i did the interview with UPL-HAL i never got the jitters and fears that an applicant would usually feel...and its so funny that it came out now...in a very odd situation...



then i know why...she declined my request...and i was so hurt...really coz prior to this she openly told us that we can go on seek job anywhere and she'll support us. i was really hurt with how she reacted... where's the promise of supporting us all the way.



but then, i still went to the orientation last saturday, hoping that with the information i will be getting there i would be able to explain to her further and later on convince her to give me the requests i was asking from her.

then things went worse when i went back to the office...my boss was boiling mad at me and said that i cant go on leave...or else if i insist she'll put me on AWOL. naman!!! patay talaga...

it was so painful...seems that all my dreams went out of sight. ganito ba talaga. when you're almost at the peak of your dreams...some situations or occurence would somehow drag you down to where you came from.

i cant do anything...my present job is my bread and butter ...at di ko basta basta ma gigive up ito. how could i support my application abroad if ala me pera di bah...??? kaya di ko pa kayang mag resign. no matter how much i dreamt of getting that job di ko pa rin kayang i give up ang source of living ko.

then i realize...my life did not end there... marami pang naghihintay sa akin in the future...m still so young.

i am positive that the best thing is still coming to my life... alam ko. coz God never gave me problems that i cant solve nor obstacles that i cant hurdle.

kaya kaya ko ito... am still waiting for my "window" to open...

madrama ang buhay ko ngaun...siguro this is not yet the right time for me to go and work abroad...

i just hope and pray na when an oppurtunity would soon come into my life...i would be very ready to grab it and make my dreams into reality...

"loveya'll"

jinny

storm of emotions

m happy...
though its not yet sure...masaya me kasi i've learned that my new pamangkin (mia's baby) will be a GIRL... hheeheh dami na naming girls sa family.... and we will name her,

ZAIN LEONA. why such name???
ZAIN- got the name from KC's friend in Paris. I've watched her project in ABS-CBN last night, as in pinagpuyatan.... KC from Paris to Pinas.... such an inspiring work of art... un!
and i've realized it is also some sort of a combination sa names naming magkakapatid... Z-from mizziel, A- from sunday, IN from jin-moi.... :) di ba cute...

LEONA - is also a rough combination of my parents name as well as mia's. L- from Mirasol, EO-from MEO my tatay's nickname, and NA from MARCELINA my nanay's name... o di vah...

and i planned to give her a sossy nickname... EONA.... pronounced as YONA...o divah... love ko kasi si Ms. EULA kaya ganon....

m so excited na of our new baby... Hehehe...

m sad...

its been three days na since the last time that my baby had texted me... i miss him jud and i dunno y. grabe...
i cried a river yesterday kasi alam ko rin na malungkot sya...at posibleng busy din sya...
alam kong pagod sya palagi...but i just cant help it... na mimiss ko talaga sya sobra...super to the max... : [.

m inspired
nagpuyat me kagabi sa pagpapanood nang docu ni KC... ung KC from Paris to Pinas... as in nakaka inspire itong batang ito...she's so down to earth and so nationalistic... love ko na sya...
i wanna be like her...inspite of her status... nakakatulong pa rin sya sa ating mga kababayan nating nangangailangan nang tulong...

grabe, bow ako sau KC ... God Bless You always... ang bait mong tao...

hay... ito ang mga emotions na nararamdaman ko ngaun... sana i would be okay soon... maski di me ok...basta ok lang si John and the rest of my family...

love ko sila...and im willing to give up my own happiness for them to be happy... sa susunod na naman...

- loveyah'l-

jinny